Naughty or Nice

I love Christmas. I love to watch those I love open up gifts that I took the time to purchase or make for them! But most of all, I like to open my gifts! LOL! I must have been a good girl this year as I received many wonderful gifts. I received a new vacuum cleaner (for those of you who know my animals, you know this is an essential!), Monopoly "Here and Now" game, Trivia Pursuit 80's edition, Grease DVD - Rydell High Edition (yes, this is my second DVD but it has extras on it that the other one doesn't!), the Dreamgirls CD, earrings, gift cards, a new griddle pan, cookie sheets, pizza pan, and the equipment to download music from the computer to my phone! All good stuff! Now if I can just remember to write my Thank you cards I will be doing well!

Did I get all I wanted? I got everything I wanted and more that I didn't know I wanted! LOL! But the two things I really wanted, no I did not get. I am hoping though that the new year brings me these two things. One being Ron coming home and the other being clarity about where Jim and I are heading. How strange for me. The two things I wanted are so unmaterialistic! I must be growing up!

I did it!

I finally did it! I finished the picture that I was working on for my sister's Christmas present. Isn't it pretty? LOL! I started on a new project, Snow White, for my niece. I just can't sit down and not have something in my hands to do!

It's been busy.....

It's been awhile since I've last blogged. I've been very busy with work. I've also been working on my sister's christmas present! I hope to have it completed soon.

Insanity and Ulcers

I am at the point that I am seriously considering how I am even still functioning. I feel so completely overwhelmed at the moment. Work is hectic, to put it mildly. My PIC is leaving. My grandmother AND sister are both in for a visit. I think I may just go insane!

At work I am handling 4 associations. Typically wouldn’t be bad but they all have decided to require attention at once. I am traveling to different cities to put on classes for one association while back at the office there are board meetings and conventions, websites, and newsletters that need to be done! And yet, I keep telling everyone that I can do it. So far, I have. But I have to do all this til the Monday after Thanksgiving. I don’t know if I can last that long.

Then my PIC at work is leaving. I am happy she is going to a new place that will hopefully make her happier but I don’t know what I will do without someone to laugh with or commiserate with at work! It will be a rough adjustment!

The visits! My grandmother arrives today. Love her to death but it is so hard to please her. Then my sister arrives on Friday. That ought to be interesting. And me, trying to please everyone will be running around like a chicken without a head. On Saturday my grandmother, my mom, my sister and I are attending the football game. That ought to be interesting since my sister is already being a baby about that. She wants to go down all day to tailgate and get drunk. Which means she will need a ride down there, which means I will have to drive her. Then later I will have to pick up my mom and grandmother to take them down to the game and then sit through the game with them while I am sure my grandmother will make some comment about my sister’s drinking. We are all over 21! It’s legal as long as she doesn’t drive!

Is it possible to give oneself an ulcer? I think I am well on my way!

The Visitor

Friday night my friends and I gathered together to celebrate the return of my friend Joyful from Europe. She had been over there for two weeks visiting England for pleasure and Germany for family.

We all went to one of our favorite sushi restaurants. We placed our orders and settled down into visiting and catching up with each other. Our waiter brought our food and we were all enjoying our different rolls when one of my friends very calmly got up from the table and backed away from it while saying "Joy, stay calm, but there is a roach next to you." Yep, that's right! A roach, the visitor, had decided to join our meal. He was right next to Joy on the wall. Now, Joy is TERRIFIED of roaches. I have to commend her for keeping it together and just jumping up and grabbing her food. I, on the other hand, sat back and watched the events unfold and giggled!

Our waiter was very efficient and came over right away and killed the roach and promptly moved us to another table. We only received 20% off the bill.

I have to say that it may be quite awhile before we go back! LOL!

Chemistry

Why is it when you finally meet that nice guy who you can talk to, you enjoy being with, and treats you wonderfully, there is absolutely no chemistry. No butterflies in the stomach. No tingling when he touches you. You might as well be with your brother.

It is frustrating to know that the person who excites you and makes you feel alive is probably someone that you shouldn't be with. Why is it that you always want what you can't have or what is bad for you? I guess if I knew the answer to that, I wouldn't still be single!

September 13, 2006

Today, when I woke up, I didn’t have that sad feeling that I’ve had for the last 3 years. I wasn’t jumping up and down with joy but I didn’t feel so very depressed. I still remember what today is and it saddens me but it’s not the overwhelming grief that I had felt before.

I finally slept last night. I hadn’t slept in two nights and I was pretty tired. I woke up only once at 3 am but was able to get back to sleep. And like every morning, as it has been for the last few months, I got my wake up call. It makes getting up that much better to know that someone is thinking of me first thing in the morning. Makes one feel all warm and fuzzy.

Life does go on. At the moment that something incredibly sad happens, you don’t think that you can. But what every one says is true. Life does go on, you will never forget, but the sadness does go away. Time does heal all wounds. (Just seeing how many clichés I can throw in).

It's time for....

It’s that time of year, FOOTBALL SEASON! Ok, so I am like a huge LSU fan. Is there any other school? LOL! I totally respect other people’s opinions, I just don’t agree with them unless it is something good about LSU.

Yes, the team they played last week could be compared to a high school team, however, they are trying to help out the lesser inner state schools by bringing them some recognition and revenues. This week it is Arizona! I am lucky enough that my father was able to get two tickets for me and Joyful. I haven’t been back to campus since they’ve completed the renovations to the stadium so it will be interesting to see them.

Next week is Auburn. That’s an away game that is on tv at 2:30 p.m. I don’t like afternoon games. I feel like the whole day is wasted.

LAST WEEKEND:
Last weekend I had the opportunity to spend the day in New Orleans. It was fairly quiet around the French Quarter although it was Decadence weekend. There were some very interesting men out and about but not like in the past. Although it did amaze me that this one guy could walk down the street in just a white undershirt and his BVDs. His facial expression was of one who was completely dressed and taking a walk. Thank goodness for sunglasses and the guy couldn’t see that I was staring and trying not to laugh! Also, who ever thought that leather and feathers make an interesting outfit? It doesn’t.

The week from hell......

My first week in the office alone. I am already about to pull all my hair out. My boss, a.ka. the leprechaun, has been bugging me consistently. In and out of my office asking me to make copies, fax items, pull files. Nothing different but at the moment I am trying to juggle many things at once and try to make sure that all is getting done.

It is so extremely frustrating. Then on top of the leprechaun (no pun intended), we have the part time Nazi who is treating us as if she is the boss. Making us participate in things that normally we would have participated in but because she signs us up for things without asking us, we feel resentful. I especially feel resentful. I am very independent and I do not like being told what I can or cannot do. I am going to just naturally rebel against that. It’s such a shame. She was out yesterday because her child was sick and I was actually thankful because it was so quiet and the tension level was much lower.

I am taking Friday off so I can have a nice 4 day weekend. No, I am not going anywhere but I am going to take advantage of 4 days to get things done around my apartment that otherwise gets neglected. Plus spend time with my dad whose birthday is Friday. And maybe throw in a day trip to New Orleans. Oh, and the BEST part of this weekend: LSU FOOTBALL!!!! Geaux Tigers!

Forgetting or Healing?

Currently, life is good. I have a job that I like most of the time (but who really likes to work)? I have friends who are great. I have a dog and cat who keep me company at home at nights. I have a “special” friend who I have a great email and phone relationship with.

And yet, once again, I have that sense of doom. This year it’s hitting a little later than usual but it’s the same one that I’ve had for the past two years every time around now. Maybe not a feeling of doom, but just depression. Like something is missing. I know what it is. I’ve always known what it is but it never changes.

It’s gotten better though. I have my “special” friend to thank for that. I’m happy, he makes me happy. The only thing I could ask is that we go on to the next step in the relationship. But I am being patient.

The nightmares aren’t as frequent. I’m sleeping better at night. I don’t have the flashbacks like I used to. It’s all getting better. But as it gets better, does that mean I will forget? I don’t want to ever forget. But I don’t want it to hurt either when I remember.

Three years ago, September 13th, my beautiful baby niece died. It was so sudden and so cruel. She had only been with us for one year. She was developing such a wonderful personality. So opposite from her twin brother. And definitely different from her older sister.

I hate to admit that I did forget to visit the grave this year when her birthday went by. I knew it was her birthday because I knew it was her brother’s. But I forgot. I felt so bad about that once I remembered. It’s like I forgot her.

Friendship

One of my very best friends through high school and college was Sarah. We always had fun when together and many times we got into trouble! We knew everything about each other. If I had to choose, she would be the one person on this earth who knows all my deep, dark secrets. She is a friend who knows instantly what is going on in my mind without me even verbalizing it.

We haven’t been close in the last few years. Life has just gotten in the way. And probably a touch of laziness on both of our parts! Not to mention minor, silly arguments that just seemed to escalate and stubbornness on both of our parts.

I’ve missed her. I’ve missed our talks. I’ve missed our escapades. It’s a shame that a major life event has had to occur to make me realize that. Sarah is about to become a mother. What a wonderful and frightening time for her.

Her baby shower will be in Houston on Oct. 28th. Yes, I plan on being there and so is our friend Joy. We will all finally be in the same room at the same time for the first time in at least 2 if not 3 years. I can’t wait. Although I do hope to get to see her sooner than that. I plan on being in Houston the weekend of Sept. 16th . I hope that I can find sometime to see her. That is going to be a busy weekend with Parker’s birthday party and the LSU – Auburn game, but I am going to try!

Birthdays and First Day of School

How time flies! I can’t believe that Parker is now 4 and Marly has started school! I remember when they were cute little chubby babies! Now, they are growing up so quickly!



















Marly started her first day of kindergarten on August 16th. Her teacher is Ms. Watson and this is her first year of teaching. Marly’s first backpack is leopard print! She picked that out herself. She is currently taking her lunch but very much wants to try cafeteria food!

Parker is now 4! He is such a big boy. He received many gifts, except from his Aunt Mel. I will be bringing him his gift in September when we have his birthday party. Granny Mona was much more responsible and sent his gift already. A Thomas the Train set.

I’m sure that when I go to visit in September they will be telling me what Halloween costumes they are going to want! That was a tradition I started with Marly when she was 1. Her first costume was Snow White. She has been Ariel, Minnie Mouse, and TinkerBell. Parker has been Buzz LightYear and Peter Pan. So cute! So expensive!

Scrapping....

What have I been up to? Not much. Just spending time with friends and doing some scrap booking. It’s a contagious hobby. You start talking about it to one friend and they start doing it and then another one joins and another one. Saturday was a day of scrapping with two of my oldest friends. It was fun because we were going through old photographs of ourselves. We go back more than 10 years so that is a lot of memories.

Here are some of the pictures from Saturday and an evening last week with Bean scrapping too:

Bean being her very creative self:
Celestine and Joy working hard on their first pages: Joy's first layout: Celestine's first page:

What a sweetheart!

My friend Ron, with my dog Duke. Hanging out in my apartment. He had come over for us to spend some time together because this week he is moving to Virginia. That is where he will be stationed from now on. He is such a good friend and I really don't know what I did to deserve him. Ok, so he drives me crazy sometimes but it is just part of his charm. He makes me laugh and smile, that is what is important.

He had remembered that I had mentioned one day that my cd player/radio was going out because it was so old. As a going away gift, he bought me a new one. That was so incredibly sweet and so unnecessary! I felt bad that I hadn't gotten him anything but I did at least get to feed him. I made him a big plate of red beans and rice. At least I know that for one night he wasn't eating fast food again!

It will be difficult but I will definitely do my best to keep in touch with him. I think because I griped so much about him not having a cell phone anymore that he went and bought one so he could have one! So there will be phone calls, text messages and emails! And he can keep up with me too by reading this blog! I know that I will see him again but 8 months from now is a very long time! And with him being on a submarine for 6 of those months communication will be very limited!

Good bye is so permanent.....

I never thought that someone who I have only known for a few months would have such an impact on me. I’m not one to easily open up to someone and let them in. But with Ron, I did do that. I could, no correction, CAN talk to him about anything. And he doesn’t judge me. The man has the patience of a saint because I have tested it many many times over. And yet, for someone reason he still wants me as a friend.

He is leaving this week for Virginia. He is being stationed there. I always knew, from the time I met him, that this was going to happen. And yet it doesn’t make it any easier. We didn’t see much of each other to begin with but we did email and phone. If I had a problem, I could talk to him and know that he wasn’t thinking how childish I was being. Ok, so he probably was thinking that but he wouldn’t say it to me. He would let me figure that one out on my own.

I seriously feel like I am losing one of my best friends and I am not quite sure how to cope with that. Friends are so hard to come by these days. At least ones that you can trust and be honest with.

I know, I know, email and phone are still available, but it’s harder when the person moves a couple of states away. One of my very good friends moved just next door to Texas and we have done a horrible job in keeping in touch. It takes a major life event for us to get together these days. I don’t want that to happen. I don’t want to say good bye.

Weekend Update

The weekend was a quiet one. I stayed around the apartment and cleaned and cooked for the week. I have to say that the apartment is looking pretty good. I even made the bed this morning as I was so inspired!

I had the opportunity to speak to an old friend of mine yesterday about all that has been going on in her life. Almost a month ago she sent an email to all of us saying that she was pregnant. That was it. She was pregnant. No information on if she was with anyone, married, engaged, sperm donor, nothing. My friends and I, who still live in the old hometown, had tried to reach her numerous times by phone and email and had not been able to do so. It felt like to us that she was hiding something. She finally called me yesterday. We talked for an hour. She is in a long distance relationship, currently working on her fellowship in oncology/hematology and 5 ½ months pregnant. But she sounds happy. I think. We won’t get to meet him until probably October unless I have time when I go to Houston in September. He hasn’t even met her parents. They are flying in at the end of this month to meet the parents. She finds out what the baby is on Tuesday. The baby’s room will be Classic Winnie the Pooh. It seems so odd to me that she is having a baby.

My sister called last night to tell me about some guys she met last weekend. They were from Chicago. They were all Sicilians. With lots of cash. She said they were all flashing wads of cash all around. They paid for everything. Dinner, drinks, tips, etc. She asked the guy she was interested in what business he was in and he replied construction. She said that she had a flashback to the scene in Goodfellas when Ray Liotta’s character meets his wife and she asks him what he does and he says construction! Of course, for anyone who knows my sister, she has always had this secret obsession with the mob so of course this is a major attraction for her. We’ll see how it goes now that he is back in Chicago and she is in Austin.

It’s an addiction, scrapbooking. It is so addicting. I did like 6 pages this weekend with the materials I had. And I want to do so much more but I need other things and yet I don’t want to spend the money because things are kind of tight right now and I am trying to be good. But geez, it is so addicting. I did my first page and then it was downhill from there. Now all I can think about is what I want to do with other pictures that I have and how I can improve the previous pages I did.

Difficult Road Ahead?

My office mate is pregnant. She is due September 1st. She will be gone for 12 weeks. I'm not quite sure how this is going to work. That will add 3 additional associations to my responsiblities. When I have weeks like this one, I wonder how it will all get done.

This week, one of her associations has 2 classes, one in Lafayette and the other at the office. I have a board meeting this weekend. We were out of the office all day today because of the Lafayette class leaving me just tomorrow to complete everything for the board meeting. Although I did get everything to my boss early to review, I am pretty sure that when I get back to the office in the morning nothing will have been done on his part. If it has been, I will be very pleasantly surprised.

My office mate drove up to Lafayette Wednesday evening so that she wouldn't have to get up very early on Thursday to be there. On her drive in her back tire blew out. Not just go flat but blew out. It was in shreds. She was very lucky that a nice man pulled over and changed it for her as I wasn't there and her husband was in Alec on business. When she called I was so concerned that she was going to go into labor that night. I'm not ready for her to leave yet.

One more day of work and then it will be the weekend. Although I have to work till 6 on Friday, I just keep repeating to myself, overtime, overtime, overtime!

Update:

Ok, after being away from the blog for a week or so, here’s a recap of what has been going on.

On the 21st I had ALL of my wisdom teeth removed. Just not the two the dentist had originally said, but all 4. It was a weekend of sleeping and being drugged up. Not sure really of all that happened. Hopefully nothing too important!

Last week my sister was in town. For a whole 8 days. How much did I see her? Hmmm, let’s see. I had a family dinner on the first Sunday she was here. The family did dinner and a movie night on Wednesday and then I saw her briefly at the Varsity on Friday night. Yes, lots of quality time. But that is how we work. The less time together the better we get along. It may have to do with the 5 year gap in our ages or it could be that we are just so totally opposite we don’t really get along well.

Needless to say, Friday night had its ups and downs. It was definitely nice to get out have dinner with the friends and then go hear a band. It was when we were at the Varsity that the “down” part occurred. My friends and I were sitting at the bar, with my sister and her friends standing behind us. I was not looking around at the crowd or made eye contact with anyone outside of my circle of friends and yet somehow I attracted some guy’s attention. He was definitely not my type. He appeared to have not even showered before coming to the bar. I never really looked him in the eye as I was attempting to get rid of him. However, no matter how curt I was with him or how much I ignored him, he still kept talking. The only points he scored was that he thought my sister was the older sister and that I was the younger sister. Needless to say, I had to look for one of my sister’s guy friends to come and rescue me. As soon as Box came around, the guy couldn’t run away fast enough. Now I remember why I don’t like to go to bars!

What color heart do you have?

Another quiz! You have to be amazed at how closely they do come to saying what you are all about.

Your Heart Is Blue

Love is a doing word for you. You know it's love when you treat each other well.You are a giving lover, but you don't give too much. You expect something in return. Your flirting style: Friendly Your lucky first date: Lunch at an outdoor cafe Your dream lover: Is both generous and selfish What you bring to relationships: Loyalty

What Color Heart Do You Have?

Bitten.....

I’ve never been one to be extremely creative. I can’t draw, I can’t paint, I can’t write. I do have a good imagination. However, to translate that into something that is artsy is another story.

I do cross stitch but what’s hard about that? You pick a picture you like, buy the pre-determined materials and you sew it based off of a pattern. Yes, you have a pretty picture at the end that you can either frame, make a pillow out of, or perhaps even a blanket, but it’s still very structured.

Then you have scrapping. Everything about it just screams creativity. Everything that I am not. And yet, for some mysterious reason, I’ve been bitten by the scrapping bug. I have yet to produce an actual page yet, but I am currently enjoying buying the paper and other items needed to produce it! I have so many pictures that I have never done anything with that has so much potential for really fun pages.

It’s a little overwhelming though. Where does one start? You come to a time when you have all the supplies needed, you have gathered all the pictures, then what? What is it that you do with it all? How do you put it all together so that you just don’t have a bunch of nonsense on one page?

To be continued……

The World's Greatest Mystery

Does any one really care if Tom Cruise and Katie Holmes had a child together? Is it of such national importance that there have to be daily news reports on it? There are websites dedicated to uncovering the “mystery” of this child. People are wasting their lives away by sitting watching the Cruises just to get a photograph of this mystery child.

I don’t care. I really don’t. And if you really give it some thought, why would someone go through all the trouble of faking a pregnancy and at the end not have a child to show off. If you are seriously going to take the trouble of doing a pregnancy wouldn’t you think it all the way through and have a child to show the world?

Blue Eyed Girl

Hazel Eyes-People with hazel eyes are GORGEOUS.They have the most unusual relationships. They're awesome at diversity and trying new things and very rarely will say no to ANY challenge. They are also the best in bed.If you have hazel eyes and repost this you will learn your new favorite technique of catching someone special

Blue Eyes-People with blue eyes last the longest in relationships. kind pretty or handsome very good kissers.they always fall in love with there closest friends and never understand why, they are very funny and outgoing and don't care what people think or say,They are very satisfying and love to please. They can EXCEED your pleasure standards. The best of all. If you repost this and you have blue eyes you will have the best kiss sometime in the next 5 days.

Green Eyes-People with green eyes have the most passion put into relationships, they have long lasting relationships. People with green eyes are also the horniest. They long for the touch of another. People with green eves are very sexy and very attractive towards the opposite sex. You will meet the person you're going to spend the rest of your life with if you repost this.

Brown Eyes-STRAIGHT UP PIMPS!!!!!Sexy as hell, they're unforgetable, people with brown eyes are very attractive, adorable, love to make new friends. They know how to have fun. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite.. Can make anyone laugh or cheer them up. Best in bed can last up to HOURS.....Loves to please the one they care for or love, VERYYYYY good kissers, repost this if you have brown eyes, and you will find the one that you are meant to be with within the next 7 days.

Blue/Green Eyes-People with Blue-Green eyes last the longest in relationships put the most passion into relationships. They r kind, pretty, and handsome,sexy, and are VERY good kissers and are also the horniest. They long for the touch of another. If you repost this, in the next 6 days, you will have the best kiss ever with the one you are meant to be with forever.

Craft Time

I find that most of my friends have a creative outlet of some sort. I myself like to cross stitch. Here is one of my current projects. It is suppose to eventually be a fairy:


Celestine does cards. She is very good at it. She also does other stamp projects but I don't have samples of those:



Bean does jewelry and scrapping. I have to say that she is very good at it. I wish that I had more samples of her work to show off. It is high quality items that are definitely gift worthy. These pictures of the earrings that she did for my birthday just don't do them justice!


I guess we all do these things in order to get out some stress and tension in our life. But mostly, because it is such fun and brings us lots of happiness!

What Flavor Martini Are You?

You Are an Orange Martini

Everyone's favorite drunk, you're fun, flirty, and charming.Unfortunately, you often spark jealousy - and unintentionally start bar fights. You should never: Drink and dial. You'll just end up with multiple booty calls at your door! Your ideal party: Is huge and lively. You love to work a crowd. Your drinking soulmates: those with a Blueberry Martini personality Your drinking rivals: those with a Dirty Martini personality

What Flavor Martini Are You?

The Dentist

The dreaded dentist. Yep, I had to visit the dentist today. It was pure misery for me. Ok, so I made most of it up in my mind and it wasn't that bad, but still, just the thought of the dentist sends shivers up my spine!

This past weekend while in Houston, I noticed this hole in my back tooth. That's right, a hole. I knew that wasn't right. I figured that the one filling in my mouth (and I couldn't remember which tooth that was in) had fallen out. Well after visiting the dentist today, I find that I have broken a wisdom tooth.

Now why do I still have my wisdom teeth? Because I have this aversion to pain. They never bothered me so I never thought it was necessary to have them removed. Well, now I have to have two removed. My two upper wisdom teeth. The dentist said I have some time before I need to do my bottom two but that eventually I will need to have it done. Yippee!

So now I have "surgery" scheduled for July 21st! My mommy is going to drive me and take care of me! I just hope that nothing goes wrong. I am keeping my fingers crossed. Of course I have two whole weeks to make myself sick with fear! Damn overactive imagination!

Fourth of July Weekend

I spent this fourth of July weekend in Houston. I stayed with some friends of mine. It was fun. Was able to catch up with them, spend some time with the kids and get some shopping in.

Saturday was spent just going to the mall and to a cross stitch store. The cross stitch store was absolute heaven to me. It had every pattern book you could imagine and all the items necessary to complete each project . I was quite happy. I also saw the movies The Devil Wears Prada and Superman. I highly recommend seeing The Devil but Superman, it's best to wait till DVD. It's a very long movie (2.5 hours) and slow in many places. Although it did have a interesting twist in it. Definitely leaving it open for additional movies.

Sunday I did something I haven't done in years. We all went to the water park. That was fun. I have to admit that was a lot of fun. More than I thought it would be. Yep, I sure did go down those slides! Tried most of them at least once. It wasn't sunny at all so I didn't get sun burnt, which was very nice.

Monday I went to Ikea with some friends of mine who were also in Houston for the weekend. We spent 4 hours in the store just looking at everything. There are so many items for the home. It made me want to buy a home of my own and then I came to my senses when I realized all the responsibility involved. Like mowing the grass. Why would I ever want to do that just to be able to decorate any way I wanted to?

Friday - Cleaning Day

Today is cleaning day. Our boss was gracious enough (if you could only hear the sarcasm in the word gracious) to allow us to wear jeans to work today so that we might clean out our offices and storage room. However, the current state that many of our office areas and storage room is in mandates more than one day of cleaning to even remotely make a dent.

Who likes to clean? I don’t. I don’t even like to clean my home but I do it because if I didn’t, no one else is going to. However, I don’t remember it being in my job description that I would have to clean the office or storage areas. Maybe I am just being picky or maybe it is because it is the last day before a four day weekend? Whichever it is, cleaning sucks! J

Love Style....

I love quizzes! I stole this from Random who stole it from James!

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's" Your Love Style?

Your Love Life Secrets....

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will have many true loves. You're a little scarred from your past relationships, but who isn't? You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go.

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Are we related?

So as I sat in my apartment last night flipping channels because there was absolutely nothing on tv, I settled upon watching the Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency show. Yes, I know. This show is the cheesiest of all reality shows!

As I sat to watch a bunch of male models be paraded around in their underwear (ok, so I couldn’t complain much about that!) I was unprepared for what I was to see. This gorgeous man was on the screen and as they popped up his name and home town I was shocked! His last name was the same as mine! (FYI: Not many people spell the last name I have the way that my family does) Not only was his last name the same but he was from the same town that my father and his family lived.


Of course I had to call my mother to let her know. She flipped the channel and was able to see him but didn’t recognize him. Dad didn’t recognize him either but he said he was probably a cousin somewhere along the line but he didn’t know who he was related to. So I called my sister. Put my sister on a mission and she will discover anything!

Needless to say, my sister found this model’s MySpace page and she sent him a message. Basically she asked who he was related to and that our last names were the same and our family came from the same place he did. Now, either he is going to think that this is some pick up line or that she is crazy! I will update this post as soon as I find out if he responds to her!

The Boss

One of my biggest pet peeves is being treated like a child. Actually, like a stupid child. Have you ever had a boss who is constantly spending more time explaining on how to do something as simple as picking up a phone and dialing the number to relay a message to someone. Or a boss who wastes your time by writing an email, then forwarding it to you to send to other people, who you know he has their email addresses.

Another favorite of mine is when he walks into your office to answer an email that you wrote him (that is if he even reads the email). Or calls you on the phone to answer your email and interrupts what you are doing. The important thing is that he interrupts whatever it is that you are currently working on for some mundane answer that could have been simply relayed by just clicking the reply button on the email.

Or when he is opening his mail and after each piece of mail he brings it to the appropriate person that it belongs to and then goes back to his desk and opens the next piece and then once again brings it to who it belongs to. I don’t think he understands the word efficiency. It would be so much better to just open all the mail, divide into the appropriate piles and then deliver to the person all at once. But no! He must come into each office about 100 times a day to see what you are or are not doing!

I’m amazed that each day I can go into work and put a smile on my face and not wring his little neck!

I'm so confused!

Do you ever have that feeling that no matter what is happening, you just aren't satisfied? My life, at this point, feels like it is at a crossroads, I need to make a decision as to where I am going. I feel like I am on a stationary bike, pedaling away, but am getting nowhere fast. I can't quite figure out what needs to be done in order to move forward. I have two choices, I can either continue on with the way things currently are or I can make a change and see where that leads me. The one thing is that I don't like change. And I have so much time invested in a particular project that I don't want to give that up. I thought that maybe by writing out my thoughts that it would spark something, but it hasn't. It's just made me more confused! Well, one thing has come to me, I've realized that I have allowed part of my life to be in control by someone else. And as much as that bothers me, I so want that person to control my life! Or at least influence it.

Dreams

Have you ever had a dream that felt so real that the feelings associated with it stayed with you all day? I have dreams like that and usually when I do, they do come true. I'm not saying that I am psychic or anything but I've been able to "predict" a few things along the way in my life. It's never been anything bad, thank goodness. Just some really nice events in life.

I dream a lot when I sleep. Which is why I am always so sleepy even after a full night's sleep. A lot of moments in my life have had that deja vu feeling.

I had this dream last night that I met the man of my dreams. We ran into each other at some place, literally ran into each other because I am so clumsy! It was love at first sight. I hope that this dream does come true for me. It seemed so natural and right. I woke up with this cozy, warm, loved feeling. And this feeling has stayed with me through the day today. I also have this feeling of expectation. Like something is going to happen! I hope it is me running into the man of my dreams.

The Calm...

before the storm? Tomorrow starts my summer meeting. It’s my first. Ok, not my first convention, but my first summertime one. I hope that all goes well. We have completed all packets, badges, signs, etc. It’s almost too easy.

For the day before a convention I am amazingly calm. I’ve had a wonderful, ok, maybe not wonderful, but I’ve had a good day. I started with a 20 minute phone conversation with HIM. That was enough to put a smile on my face for the rest of the day. Even the short 15 minute meeting with my boss today about bonuses and how much did I think deserve didn’t phase me. I’m not panicking and don’t really feel the need to do so. I feel confident that all has been completed and that it will all be right. And if not, I just don’t care!

My biggest concern is leaving my dog behind. He is staying with Bean and while I know he will be well looked after, I will miss him. He is my constant companion during my down time. I just hope he behaves and doesn’t embarrass me as he is EXTREMELY spoiled. Yes, I acknowledge the fact that I am responsible for his behavior, but if you could see him, he is just so darn cute. You just can’t say no to his face! I will have to remember to post his picture up here.

Oh be still my pounding heart!

So I woke up this morning realizing it was Sunday. Had lots of plans, but yet none seem to actually materialize. This morning was the fifth morning in a row that I had had to wake up on my own. Needless to say, I had a wonderful pity party this morning. Silly, doubting thoughts began to run through my head. Had he forgotten me? Was he really that busy? Had he met some Yankee girl?

Then around lunch time as I was in my room putting clothes in the washer I hear my phone ring. It's his ringtone. Needless to say I go running and dive for the phone. While doing this I stub my big toe and it is throbbing as I breathlessly answer the phone. He had called to check in. He was about to join his co-workers on some trails or something. It made me happy to just hear his voice and to hear him say that he missed me too. My heart began to pound and the butterflies were fluttering in my stomach. I do believe that I am a romantic sap! It was such a brief conversation, and yet it put a smile on my face that continues!

Can men and women be friends?

I have to ask, can men and women be friends without there being any suspicions of feelings of "LOVE"? I believe that they can. My best friend is male and no, we have NEVER slept together nor have we ever been in love with each other. We love each other very much as friends and have a great respect for each other. However, I have this other male friend who believes that my show of affection means that I am falling for him.

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a very loyal, trusting, affectionate friend. I believe that if I treat someone well, they will in return treat me well. Ok, yes I am quite aware that there are some that will take advantage of this, but I've learned over the years how to spot those "users".

I believe that this male friend of mine is assuming that my affectionate nature and complete trust towards him is more than just feelings of friendship. I don't want to protest this much because then I feel as though I appear as if I am hiding something. But I am not hiding anything. While I do love him, it as just a friend. My heart belongs to another man. Whereas I may not have yet met this man, I know that there is someone else out there to give my heart to.

So I ask men out there: "Can men and women be friends without a man assuming that the woman is falling in love with him?"

Ring Phone Ring!

Ok, I have always been one to advise, don't sit by the phone and wait for it to ring! Yep, I'm guilty! Sitting here waiting for the phone to ring. Ok, maybe not ring. I'm waiting for it to play the Bangles song Eternal Flame. Ok, a little dorky but what can I say? It's one of my favorites so I put it as the ringtone for one of my favorite people.

So it's been two days since he's called. I'm really starting to miss my daily wake up call. Even though he'd call before 6 a.m., it always put a smile on my face to hear him say "Get your ass out of bed, crackhead!"

He may not be calling for one or both of the following reasons. He's either really busy (plus he's not really a phone person) or he is avoiding me. He knows how stressed I get due to convention and well it's convention time again and I'm sure he doesn't want me to go off on him. Although I want him to know (and unfortunately he won't read this for weeks as he is not by a computer) that everything is good. I am stressed but am handling it much much better this time around. At least in my humble opinion.

One of the dangers of being single. You get bored and so you play around on the internet. I need to get a hobby! Oh wait, I have one, just bored with it!

Chief

I just got off of the phone with a friend of mine. He had read my blog today and was hurt that he is not mentioned in any of my entries, with the exception of one and it was me complaining about what he had said about me! So I am dedicating this whole entry to just him.

What can I say about him? He's a chief in the navy. He's a great guy, nice, kind, sweet, generous, honest, and hilarious. He's a great dad. I'm very lucky to have him as a friend. (Yes, I am very aware that he is reading this!) I can tell him anything and he doesn't judge me for any of the crazy things that I say and do! He also puts up with my crap most days! What's not to love? LOL! Ok, so he does have some faults. He forgets to call when he says he is going to call. He likes car racing. He forgets where he puts things. But those quirks just make him who he is.

I will miss him much when he goes away on the ship, but Bean and I have some great ideas for care packages. I hope he gives us the chance to execute these ideas so he can enjoy what we have planned. Just because there are thousands of miles between us, we can still remain friends and have fun! And even better is that Bean has started to get to know him and she can see how funny he is and why he makes me laugh! I hope that ALL my friends can know that.

Paranoia

How paranoid are you? Are you constantly looking over your shoulder? Are you constantly thinking that someone is watching and listening to you? Do you think that when someone speaks in general terms that they are speaking of you? GET OVER IT! LOL! Spend less time worrying about what others think or say and you might enjoy life a little bit more!

Work Sucks!

Ok, who hasn’t thought that? It’s not that my job is particularly difficult but at the moment it is just the details that are stressing me out! I have a convention next week and while this is my second one, there is still a lot that I am not aware of and I am having to learn as I go. It’s like the boss has washed his hands of this convention and I am having to make all the decisions, which isn’t what I am suppose to do. However, I have had to make choices and make arrangements and he has yet to give his final approval. Today I will meet with him to get his signature on all the hotel orders. That ought to be fun! He hasn’t been in the office for 3 days and now at the last minute I have to update him on everything and get approval of it all!

A friend of mine accused me of working too much. Said it was making me dull. I don’t think I work too much. I work my 8 hours for the day and go home. Someone has to pay my bills! Maybe he said it because when he wants to play, he just doesn’t go to work, but then he has no one to play with. Whereas, I work Monday through Friday regardless of what I want to do.

My Guardian Angel

Have you ever felt like there was someone who was watching over you? I have. And I'm lucky enough to know who it is and had the privilege of knowing her for her short time here. My little Pepe was such a source of joy. You can just tell by her beautiful smile! Unfortunately, her time here was so extremely short. I don't want to be sad, I just don't want to forget. When things get tough or I feel like I need a little guidance, I talk to her. For such a little girl, she listens really well! And doesn't judge! I know I am crazy! But we all have our quirks!

Smiling...

Have you ever thought about what makes you smile? The simplest things in life can make you feel good enough to crack the mask on your face and smile. I used to smile a lot. I was always being complimented that when I smiled my whole face lit up. I haven’t smiled much the last 3 years. There have been some experiences in life that were just so hard to comprehend that it seemed to have sucked the happiness out of me and I lost my ability to smile.

However, there does seem to be a light at the end of the dark tunnel that I’ve been living in. I’ve recently made some wonderful new friends (not that my old friends weren’t wonderful, just that we are all so spread out now) and I have something to smile about now. I’ve discovered the joy, once again, of opening the heart and letting others in. It’s crazy. I’ve lived for so long with this wall built up around me and in a matter of months (less than 6) that wall has come crumbling down and leaving me vulnerable and yet, it isn’t so bad! I have a long way to go but I’ve come so far at this point that I don’t see myself turning around. Maybe it is true about getting wiser as you age (no cracks about my age, please!).

I find myself these days just smiling at the thought of what is coming up for the weekend. I smile when my phone rings at 5:50 a.m. every morning because I know who it is going to be (and for those who know me well, know that I cherish every minute of my sleep!). Where things once aggravated me to death, I now just laugh it off (for the most part). It’s a whole new chapter for me and I hope that whoever is writing it for me, keeps up this happy time!

Can't Quite Put My Finger On It...

I've had a good weekend. Not very eventful but a good one. I've put some time and effort into cleaning part of my little apartment (if you know me, you know that my apartment is always messy, lack of storage space!). I spent some good quality time with my dog. Took him to the dog park and amazingly enough he was quite good. No barking, growling or snapping at the other dogs! I was impressed with his behavior. Ran all my errands. Trying to go to the pool today so I can get some color on this white skin of mine that glows!

Yet, with as busy as I am and quite content at being alone, I feel as though there is something missing. I feel as though there is this void in my life. And I am not quite sure how to fill it up. And yet this void is filled for a few minutes with a phone call. Just a simple phone call. Could it be that the person who called is the missing piece? Ok, obviously I have way too much time on my hands and I need to get some intellectual stimulation going on!

It's Friday!

Doesn't that just sum it all up? It is Friday! The portal to freedom for at least two days! No work, no short boss, no phone calls, no yelling, no stress! At least not until Monday at 7:30 a.m. (or whatever time you start work).

I have a very uneventful weekend ahead of me. Absolutely no plans whatsoever. Which is ok with me. I need some quiet downtime. However, I would like to have a visit sometime this weekend to keep me from being lonely. My dog is great company, but he doesn't know how to talk back! Ok, so if I had some money in the bank, maybe the weekend wouldn't be so uneventful, but however, I am broke till Monday! That's truly the reason for no plans! I hope it doesn't rain so that I can at least maybe enjoy the pool this weekend!

Just within reach...

Have you ever wanted something so badly but yet it was just out of your grasp? Not because you haven't asked for it. Not because you haven't been patient. But because someone is holding it from you. Teasing you by waving it in your face. Hinting at what you could have but yet not letting you have it. It's been like that for me for weeks now. There is something that I want so badly but yet I can't seem to reach it. No matter how hard I try. No matter how hard I reach. No matter how much I ask. I just can't obtain this simple thing.

I have no patience. Anyone who knows me, knows that I have no patience. I have been more than patient for the last 3 months. And I am being asked for more patience. It's frustrating. Am I just being played or will being patient offer up a huge payoff? I wish that I knew. I wish that I could see into the future. Hmmm, if it was that easy, everyone would be happy!

Diahrea of the mouth

Ok, so when I start to get stressed, I panic. Which thus results in me saying anything and everything that cames into my head. This has gotten me into trouble many, many times. Luckily, those closest to me know this. However, it is not a helpful thing when trying to build a new relationship. I just come across as crazy!

I've worked on this bad habit at the request of a new friend. It's gotten a lot better, but I still have a long way to go. It's like the filter in my mind shuts down and truly everything and anything just comes flying out of my mouth or onto emails. The emails are the worst and they shouldn't be. But they are. I tend to type, send and then reflect upon what I've just written. This is not good!

Maybe one day, I will be able to control it better. I'm hoping!

Setting up profile pic

Isn't he just adorable? I love Eeyore. I don't know what it is that draws me to him. In high school, each friend of mine had their favorite. And mine was Eeyore! How can you not love that face?!

Random Thought

Why is it that when someone suggests you to do something and then you proceed to do it that you get laughed at? Just wondering.....

Too much time on my hands...

I woke up this morning and the first thing I did was to call him. Yep, he didn't call to let me know he had gotten home from the lake the day before. Why should I even care? We aren't even dating! We haven't even met! And yet, this man who I have never met, only seen a head shot can get me all tied up knots. Give me butterflies in the stomach. Put a smile on my face with a simple "hello". There's only one word for it: pathetic! But its nice to actually want to open up to someone. To want to share things with. I haven't wanted that in a very long time. Years! and Years! He keeps me so very positive. Ok, so I have way too much time on my hands obviously that I am thinking about this with so much depth. I guess its because when I go home from work, work stays at work and well, I am lucky enough that most of my friends live very drama free lives. So there isn't a lot to worry about. Our biggest worry is what book to read next or what movie to go see! Or perhaps, what craft project to start. Not very complicated since most of us are single. No men to mess things up. But for some reason we all want a man to mess things up! But I am hoping that a man, and a particular man, will only enhance what I have. And I think that is suppose to be how it works.

You've Got Mail

Have you ever seen the movie "You've Got Mail" with Meg Ryan and Tom Hanks? Its just one of those feel good movies. It makes me reflect upon my "relationship" that I have with this guy in Arkansas. Yes, I tried the Eharmony thing and have been corresponding with a man who lives in Arkansas. He lives approximately 6 1/2 hours away. We've been emailing and speaking on the phone for 5 months now. When are we going to meet? I have no idea. It seems that every time I am free, he isn't, or if he is free, I am not. It's like it is doomed before it even starts! The bad thing is that I have really come to like, respect, and value this correspondence with this man that I have not seen. I can only hope that I am as lucky as Meg Ryan was in the movie to find my Tom Hanks!

Another Year Older

My 31st birthday was Thursday. I have to say while it was not earth shattering, it was very pleasant. I work with a bunch of great women who took me to lunch and decorated my desk with balloons and of course a birthday card. My friend, J, who I work with, was so sweet as to buy me a hard back copy of my favorite book, Pride and Prejudice. She had borrowed my paper back copy and it was falling apart and was thoughtful enough to buy me a new one! My long time friend, Joyful, bought me two beautiful leather bound books, The Complete Collection of Grimm's Fairy Tales and the Collection of Lewis Carroll stories. I definitely felt loved and thought of this birthday. Makes me appreciate my friends and not worry so much about finding that one true companion!