I preface this entry with a warning. I am going to be self-indulgent, whiney, cry-babyish, etc. Writing things down in my journal is just not getting it done these days so I am going to put it out to the universe. So I apologize for this posting BUT I did issue the warning. If you continue on reading, that is up to you!
Work is supposed to get better now that my convention is over. I was hoping to get out from under the mounds of paper piles that are on top of my desk and around the desk. However, that may not be happening anytime soon. We are still short-handed. Well, guess whose hands are being used to pitch in? Yep, that's right. Mine. Last I checked, I only have 2 but I'm being asked to pitch in another 2. Hmmmm, let's see me pull that one (or two) out of my butt!!!
I am also supposed to be taking lead on an upcoming convention for an association that isn't mine. Why? Because the person who is in charge of that association cannot get the work done. She cannot get her "normal" day-to-day work done in a normal 40 hour week, then to add on to that a convention? Yep, she might abandon ship. So instead, the little man's solution is to have me do the work.
And yes, I am supposed to do all of this and keep my association up and running. While I do enjoy the money that the overtime is generating, I am so stressed, overwhelmed and exhausted I don't think the benefits are outweighing the negatives! You know, I think I might have to try being incompetent and see where that gets me!
Remember, I said this was going to be a self-indulgent, whiney post! I have been missing My Sailor a lot lately. Most likely because I am so tired and my "defenses" are down. But I miss him telling me to stop worrying so much or in his words "stop sweating the small stuff." The way he listened to what I had to say and actually hear it (well, as long as I wasn't complaining about something he did.) He was never in my life on a day-to-day basis, but he did impact me. Still does. The lessons I learned from him are helping me today. I just wish he was around cause I could really use his comfort right now. Like I said, I'm so exhausted, my defenses are down. I typically am very good at repressing all feelings in regard to him!!!
Ok, those are my two biggest complaints in life right now. Other than that, everything is peachy! I have a ton of stitching projects to wade through (always a good thing). I have a stack of books to read (another good thing). I have Mardi Gras parades to look forward to starting this Saturday. I have a trip to see my grandparents coming up. Then before I know it, spring will be here and I will be headed to Houston for my babies' birthdays!!!!
See, I feel better already. I just had to put it down for everyone to read and to realize that things aren't as bad as they seem in my head!
Now, I am off to tackle my stitching. I am almost done with the current page of Dragon Knot. I want to get that finished and pics posted soon!