I have always liked the anticipation of the holidays but then, boom, it happens! The holiday blues settle in. Ugh! I really wish they wouldn't. I loathe being a "Scrooge"!
I don't seem to be the only one though. I've been reading a number of blog entries where writers are confessing to feeling "Bah Humbug!". It's comforting to know that I am not the only one! My friend Jill suggested that I need to listen to some more Christmas music. Ummmm, not sure about that one!
I do have my little tree up. The gifts are purchased if not wrapped. I haven't put out my stocking or Duke's stocking yet though or put up my holiday wreath on the door. Why? Because I am stressed and worried to the max. What has me stressed? Money, job, and life (in that order). LOL! Oh, how I wish I could learn life's lessons without falling down so hard!
After the summer that my parents had dealing with my Sister's problems, I didn't want to bother them with mine, but this weekend was a culmination of a month long of worrying that led me to baring my soul to my parents. They were more upset that I didn't share my worries with them than the actual situation. It felt good to share my concerns with them and to be reassured. I was not looking for a solution but just a sounding board. Although, of course, if I chose, I know that my Dad has a solution because as he reminded me "I'm here for both my little girls." Awww, don't I have the best Daddy in the world! And yes, I am 35 years old and still a Daddy's girl! Always will be!
I saw recently a status update on a friend's FB page: "Stress. It does the waistline good." I laughed when I had seen this because the friend who posted it is like a size 0. However, I have to agree with it! I've been stressing so much that my appetite has dwindled away to nothing and my pants are starting to fit a bit loose. Maybe I should start to exercise and take advantage of this "jump start"?
I've continued on with some stitching, even though my mojo is gone! I'm hoping to get it back if I continue to pick up a project and put some stitches into it! Right now I am working on a Dimensions Stocking Kit that I have had for years! It is so odd to be stitching on 18-count Aida cloth! Yikes!! It is so stiff! But I really wanted to get this stocking finished. I bought two of the same pattern with the intent to make one for my sister and one for myself. So, the one I am working on now is for my sister. After 1 week of work, this is how far I've gotten. Sorry for the poor quality pic, I took it with my cell phone as I am out of batteries for the camera! This particular piece has a lot of half cross stitches in it and blends. Do I hope to finish it for Christmas? Sure. Will I? Probably not. LOL I'm pretty realistic!
Despite all my worries, misgivings, and stress, I still have a small kernel of hope and faith for the future. Who knows? I may still win that lottery!