Monday, December 06, 2010

Are You in the Holiday Spirit?

I have always liked the anticipation of the holidays but then, boom, it happens!  The holiday blues settle in.  Ugh!  I really wish they wouldn't.  I loathe being a "Scrooge"! 

I don't seem to be the only one though.  I've been reading a number of blog entries where writers are confessing to feeling "Bah Humbug!".  It's comforting to know that I am not the only one!  My friend Jill suggested that I need to listen to some more Christmas music.  Ummmm, not sure about that one!

I do have my little tree up. The gifts are purchased if not wrapped. I haven't put out my stocking or Duke's stocking yet though or put up my holiday wreath on the door. Why?  Because I am stressed and worried to the max.  What has me stressed?  Money, job, and life (in that order).  LOL!  Oh, how I wish I could learn life's lessons without falling down so hard!

After the summer that my parents had dealing with my Sister's problems, I didn't want to bother them with mine, but this weekend was a culmination of a month long of worrying that led me to baring my soul to my parents.  They were more upset that I didn't share my worries with them than the actual situation.  It felt good to share my concerns with them and to be reassured.  I was not looking for a solution but just a sounding board.  Although, of course, if I chose, I know that my Dad has a solution because as he reminded me "I'm here for both my little girls."  Awww, don't I have the best Daddy in the world!  And yes, I am 35 years old and still a Daddy's girl!  Always will be! 

I saw recently a status update on a friend's FB page: "Stress.  It does the waistline good."  I laughed when I had seen this because the friend who posted it is like a size 0.  However, I have to agree with it!  I've been stressing so much that my appetite has dwindled away to nothing and my pants are starting to fit a bit loose.  Maybe I should start to exercise and take advantage of this "jump start"?

I've continued on with some stitching, even though  my mojo is gone!  I'm hoping to get it back if I continue to pick up a project and put some stitches into it!  Right now I am working on a Dimensions Stocking Kit that I have had for years!  It is so odd to be stitching on 18-count Aida cloth!  Yikes!!  It is so stiff!  But I really wanted to get this stocking finished.  I bought two of the same pattern with the intent to make one for my sister and one for myself.  So, the one I am working on now is for my sister.  After 1 week of work, this is how far I've gotten.  Sorry for the poor quality pic, I took it with my cell phone as I am out of batteries for the camera! This particular piece has a lot of half cross stitches in it and blends.  Do I hope to finish it for Christmas?  Sure.  Will I?  Probably not.  LOL I'm pretty realistic!

Despite all my worries, misgivings, and stress, I still have a small kernel of hope and faith for the future.  Who knows?  I may still win that lottery! 

Happy Holidays!

1 comment:

Shelley said...

I hope things turn around for you soon. I can't personally understand because I've never been a scrooge this time of year. It just makes me smile to hear the Christmas music etc.

Chin up, keep on stitching and maybe things will work out for you.

Sending you cyber {{{HUGS}}} cuz it sounds like you need one real bad.